I write as a way of healing from my son's sudden death and I hope my experience will help someone else in recognizing some of the signs I now realize, but did not know what it meant till it was to late. I did not know he was planning to commit suicide. The grief is always there, your emotions and sadness get easier to control but it never goes away. Death is our enemy and not natural, and very hard to accept.
You will find additional information that is intended to inform the public of dangerous recalls of products also inform of alternative education on your health. There is a forum if you need to vent your tragedy or fears or just want to get the hurt off of your chest.
Have you lost a family member or friend to Suicide ? to Suicide ?
Are you feeling guilty about not recognizing the signs?
Are you feeling empty, lost, feel like you can'tturn to Anyone ?
Maybe my story will help you. If you have any questionsabout anything related to suicide or losing a loved one feel free to contact me by clicking on the contact button and fill out the information . I will get back to you within 48 hours.
I am not a Doctor of any kind , if you are worried about a family member or close friend get to the authorities or some one that can help immediately. Don't put it off, it might be to late.
I am just a mom that has gone through the pain of losing my only son. I am making my self available to anyone that is grieving or wants to know some of the signs I saw, after the fact. I am still grieving, it doesn't go away it just gets a little easier with time.
This is my story I hope it will help someone.
I lost my son this last September 26 , 2008. I will never forget that horrible sick feeling when my daughter called me on my cell phone . She just told me to come home quickly it was for Stoney, I asked her what was wrong? She said just come home and she hung up. I knew it was bad I just didn't know how bad.
I arrived home to what seemed like 50 or so people in my home police cars and family vehicles all in my driveway, because I was a former Television Reporter I knew it wasn't good. There was no Ambulance in sight. I instinctively knew what that meant. I had a very sick feeling come over me at that moment. I knew what had happen and what they were going to tell me. I didn't want it to be true. NO ! NO! I cried, WHY ! WHY!. WHY ? My daughters met me at the front of the house, both of them were trying to hold it together for me, they hugged me and we cried together.
I told them I had talked to him earlier about two hours ago, he called me on my cell phone. I could tell he was upset I asked him if he was alright ? He quickly said yes I'm fine, than he said Good-bye mom I love you. I cried some more just thinking about the events that took place just two hours earlier, Why didn't I go home immediately ? The heck with what I was doing Why didn't I go to him like I wanted to. My girls cried with me hugging me like they expected me to fall apart any time. My husband was in a state of shock and couldn't say anything.
After Stoney said good-bye I love you, I said I love you to I'll be home soon. I don't know if he hung up before he heard my reply or not. I quickly called him back only he would not answer the phone that's when I got a sick feeling in the pit of stomach. I needed to go home, but I felt obligated to finish what I was doing, because it involved other people. That feeling did not go away, I hurried to get finished so I could get home to him. It was two hours later when I received that fatal phone call.
My family and I tried to make sense of all of it. We tried to find reasons that could possibly cause him to do such a thing. Why ? Why ? Why ? How could he leave us that way? Why didn't he tell us how he was feeling? I knew he was in a lot of physical pain, I just didn't realize what it was doing to him emotionally. Could the medication have caused his suicide? His doctor increased the dosage around the end of May 2008 from 15mg to 30 mg 180 pills per month. I didn't like it , I became afraid of what it was doing to him. Stoney later around August wanted off of these pills, but he couldn't take the withdrawals. I would ask him if he was OK? He would always say I'm fine. In reality he was suffering immensely.
I am writing to you the reader about my family tragedy in hopes it will possibly help some one else before it is to late . Suicides are on the rise at an alarming rate. Over 310,000 last year alone committed suicide. A large percentage of these victims are generally very young adolescents to teens and young adults. None of them are for the same reason. Usually the suicidal victim sees no way out, and has a feeling of hopelessness. For what ever reason they choose, they hide his or her pain from the very ones that love them the most. Some of the signs to look for are on the next page.
Interestingly enough Men usually choose a gun or hanging ,something that will complete the job, whereas woman usually choose to overdose on pills leaving a possible way out if someone finds them soon enough, although some hang themselves to. It is generally a cry for help in most cases. If they had the presence of mind to examine there thinking logically, most would not harm themselves, it is generally a lull in that moment. Unfortunately depending on their course of action they choose, time is not always on there side. It is not a natural way of thinking for a healthy mind. Depression can bring severe mood swings that can temporarily clog the logical thinking . Drugs, alcohol also confuse the thinking. In loving memory of my son Stoney.
I will see you again son Revelation 21:4
I am a family person, mother of three and grandmother to seven ( and counting) I was a professional ( Television Reporter) before being disabled from a heart Attack. The three years it took me to recover gave me a lot of thinking time. I like to keep busy and I thought long and hard about what I could do to be productive knowing I could never go back to my work.
So, because there are so many problems in the world, I chose to educate and warn people of different potential harm. I decided to create a website where I felt I could help in some small way.I'm setting myself up as a watch dog of sorts for everyone concerned. All of us are affected in one way or another by contaminated food supplies, our health is affected in so many ways. Maybe our water supply, or unsanitary medical facilities, maybe its a toy that is painted with high traces of lead, or an illness . This website will be updated weekly and some subjects monthly, depending on the urgency . We will inform you of dangerous recalls of products. We created a tab where there will be a disease of the month which will educate and give symptoms when ever possible. This is where different causes and symptoms will be brought out.Some of these diseases are rare and some are relatively new some are becoming very common.
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